Dear child of mine.....

Yesterday i heard your heartbeat for the very first time. I cried. It was a steady and strong 155 beats per minute. Mommy and you are very healthy. :) Our Dr (Dr. Russell Smith) is very pleased with everything.

You are my 5th and last child but you are such a miracle and blessing, I want you to know that. I love you so very much and I haven't even met you, never felt you kick, never even seen your face.
It's strange though because i feel like i do know you in some ways already though.

If you are a boy your dad & i are going to name you Aiden Strevell and if you are a girl we are thinking Ashlynn Grace, Ashlynn Nicole, Ashlynn Rose.....not quite sure yet. I am hoping you are a boy but i will love you regardless. I just hope you come out healthy & happy.

This pregnancy has been verrrrrrry different from my others. I am not sick. I have only gotten sick 4 different times (this morning being one of them). It's mainly from stress or not eating (due to nausea).
Things i normally LOVE to eat, i can't stand....such as onions, cabbage, broccoli, & a lot of sweets i normally like i don't right now.

I am starting to feel better, have a little more energy, which is really really nice.
Your siblings are so excited to meet you!! Alexia talks about you all the time and asks a million questions a day. Austen really wants you to be a boy so he can finally have a brother. He says if you are a girl he will never play with his sisters again, but he's only 6 so what does he really know. :) Alyssa really wants you to be a girl & so does Aspen, they think Austen is mean to them sometimes so they are wishing for another sister. :)

I am so excited to feel you kick and move around. I am only 12 1/2 weeks so i have a few more weeks to go but i am still so very excited!! I can't wait to lay down and feel you move, have hiccups & just feel you move, all of it, i can't wait!!

I lay in bed and imagine you laying next to me and watching you sleep and us looking at each other. I can't wait to meet you little one! I wonder if you'll come out with a lot of hair like Aspen or come out with very little like Alyssa. I wonder how big you will be? Will you be little like Alexia (5'10) or bigger like Alyssa (6'10)...or be my biggest baby yet??? I just can't wait to meet you little one....until then i promise to give you a safe, healthy place to grow and get big & strong enough so you can come out healthy in 5 months and meet us. :)

Love you nugget!