Throughout life a girl will have many friends. Childhood friends, grade school friends, college friends, work friend, neighborhood friends etc if you're lucky enough, you can find those few that will be there through each new step.
I have a few friends I've known almost my entire life. They've literally been by my side through it all. To them I am forever grateful & so blessed to have friends every step of the way.
As a woman gets older she no longer looks for the quantity in friends, but the quality. I recently found out the hard way that unfortunately, drama that existed in my teens can still exist in my late twenties.
When a woman gets her heart broken by a man it stings, sometimes you feel as though life may never go on & you'll never smile again. When a woman gets her heart broken by a trusted friend though? It's like 100 times worse.
The cut is more deep, the sting more intense, the tears fall harder. I literally feel like I went through a death. At first I was shocked by everything that came into light, then I was so sad & the tears were so intense, I literally felt like my heart was crying, then came the anger....then the numbness.
And what now? After the words have been spoken, confessions made & apologies said, what then? Do you forgive & forget? Forgive, but don't forget? Or end a friendship? Are there some betrayals that cause too much damage? Are there some cuts that truly cut too deep? Friendship between two women is like a sacred sisterhood, one that not just any woman is invited too...a secret club no man is allowed in.....how could she break our sisterhood?
I'm usually so good & careful at picking my inner circle, the people I let in.....the people I confide in....I lay here and wonder where I went wrong? Where did I let my guard down & allow this to happen? And why did it take everything blowing up in my face before I finally saw the truth?
I can't remember the last time I had an issue with a female. I can't remember the last time I felt betrayed by a friend. I can't remember the last time so much drama revolved around someone who I considered one of my best friends, one of my sisters.
Tonight, I am heartbroken.
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