Update on baby....

Let me start this blog off by saying how grateful I am for my children, they truly are such a blessing in my life. :) Now that I have said that....yesterday I went to the Dr's (I am 16 weeks & a few days) and I measured right where i should be measuring, but I have lost 15 pounds. I told my Dr that it wasn't from throwing up but just emotional stuff that's been going on between Andrew and I have caused me to be depressed and not able to eat. He suggested anxiety medicine but I declined and just asked for an ultrasound so i could see my little bug. I layed down on the table and as soon as my little bug was on the screen a few tears fell from my eyes. I realized how selfish I've been by allowing myself to be so focused on the situation with Andrew and I and not so much on the baby. I am a mother, my ONLY job in life is to make sure my children are taken care of....even this little one who is still cooking. My Dr tried to find out the sex of the baby but he/she was on the tummy so it didn't happen yesterday. It freaks me out a little that the baby is on it's tummy! I've never seen that before! It was really great to see the baby and know that despite the emotional rollercoaster I've been on this little one is strong and healthy. I still want to make it work with Andrew more than anything in this world but I know that I can't allow myself to be upset about it anymore. I've got to keep my health up to take care of this baby. :) As far as Andrew and I, right now we are doing good, I feel and see the progress we are making. It's hard to be away from him because all I want is to lay in his arms. Overall life is good and I can't wait until the next 4 weeks pass so i get another chance to see this baby and hopefully *crosses fingers* get to know if I am going to be blessed with another son, or be blessed by another daughter. :)